Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Happy Anniversary Love Bug!!

To my loving husband...Words can't describe what emotions or feelings I have for you today. First of all, I can't believe how fast this time has gone by. It seems like just yesterday we were engaged and planning for the "Big Day"! As I look at the time on the clock right now (9:30 am) I can precisely remember what we were doing at this exact moment three years ago today. We had just met up with my parents at the temple, and my mom (Patti) was telling my dad to give his "little girl" a hug because the next time he would see her she was going to be a married woman. I remember my heart leaping out of my chest, and thinking that this whole day was already going by way too fast, and it really hadn't even started yet. As Patti and I were preparing to meet up with you emotions were flying, and excitement was growing more apparent. The second I saw you waiting there for me, my eye's filled up with tears and I knew that I was at the right place, with the right man, and that this was something that would last for eternity and I couldn't wait for that sealing power. I hugged my mom, tears and words of comfort and love were exchanged and we were off by ourselves for the next thirty minutes or so. (In all reality it might have been 5 or maybe even 15 minutes that we waited for the temple worker to come and get us, but for me time stood still for us that day in the Celestial Room.) I wanted to soak up the feeling I had in this room, I wanted to remeber it for the rest of my life, I remember thinking this is what I want heaven to be like, with you right by my side, holding my hand, and telling me how much you loved me. The feeling was absolutely amazing in this room. I know that the Lord was proud of us, those who have passed on were looking down on us with love, and complete happiness, and I know that our children were there with us too. I am sure that they are still anxiously waiting to come down and meet us, and when the Lord feels we are ready, we will get to meet those little ones that were there that day in the temple. The temple was somewhat of a blur to me since nerves were running like crazy, and now I always take the opportunity to listen more intently to wedding sealings that I go too, because I can't remember what Elder Halverson even said to us. The one thing I do remember him saying is that our future children were with us that day. I remember looking at you and you smiling at me and reassuring me that they were there with us, and that at that moment we all in that one room starting an eternal family. I couldn't have asked for more when I met you. You were following the gospel, striving to live it daily, and you were and still are to this day a willing, patient, dedicated, loving, and passionate husband (this list could go on and on, but I'll spare you the mushy details). As you have always said, the Lord knew our circumstances and we put us in bad relationships, heartache and tears but in the end of the chess game we were meant to be together, and he made that all possible by having us cross paths and fall in love. I love you babe, you mean the world to me, I look back at the past three years, and realize that we have grown up, been through pain, joy, jobs, families, callings, homes and many more things together. I am blesses to know that I get to be with you for an eternity, and I know that I couldn't have asked for a better husband for myself. I am looking forward to the many more ups and downs of life with you. Thanks for making my life complete, and being willing to spend the rest of eternity with me as well.

P.S...
To our Future Children...
Right now Mom and Dad are trying to get you down here as quickly as possible. At times Mom feels very mad and sad because she can't be with you, but there are things that we need to know and learn together before you can be brought into this world. Just know that we are anxiously waiting to meet each one of you, and to start this short period of time with you here on earth. We are honored you have chosen us to be your parents, we hope we can raise you in Truth and Righteousness. We love you!

4 comments:

Brandie Page said...

Hey guys,
Happy Anniversary!

Tifanie Findlay said...

Happy Anniversary! I didn't realize ours were so close.

Emily said...

You and Ben deserve every happiness together - I know your future children will join you when the time is right - Happy Anniversay and thank you for sharing such a sweet story!

Samantha said...

Happy Anniversary!! Fun times! And I totally know how you feel about the 'future children' thing -- it took us almost 3 years to get baby Grayson here! And I know this totally doesn't make anything better, but it really will work out when it's supposed to! And it will totally be worth it when it happens!! :)